Forget me Nots ! :)

I have a special story i want to share with y'all....

Path of Yoga ~`

I have not been blogging so I need to relearn how to do this. I was having the hardest time signing in..lol. There is a video I just love a little commercial for the show on channel 10 at 7:00 AM in the morning. I was in season five and now in seven. It would be really nice  to get a copy of season five and practice at home. I threw my TV out a few years back and so having the DVD's would work great for me.



Here is a picture of class in the Fall River Center beautiful !

A song from Forest Yogin

Forest Yogin's Music Project ~`

Forest Yogin

 I wanted to support my Yoga teacher in any way I can. I am hoping this may help raise some awareness to his request.  I love his teaching and want to see him raise the money he requires to be able to create his album. He has created music a long time ago nearly 20 years.  I believe he would love to see his original songs made into a real CD. he has as well new material.  He has a gift of music with just about every string instrument and his music and voice helps us go back to the awakened mind. His ultimate purpose is to serve others. He is a musician worth investing in.

Namaste *





https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/603740444/simple-forest-yogin-to-record-an-album-of-yogin-mu






I had some beautiful pics of him and others with their instruments. I will add as i come across more info and pictures...

I was broken from a toxic life ~

 This is where I come from my childhood home :)

Hi I have had blogging on my mind for a while now.  I have a lot to catch up on. I spent the last five years dealing with an illness called dysautonomia. For me I know for sure mine was from a combination of extreme chronic stress, trying to detox, becoming anemic. I believe STRESS was my factor along with the pharmaceutical drugs I have taken.

Two years ago lets say almost three I had a breakthrough being on Paxil temporarily. that was an antidepressant. I still felt emotional pain and loneliness, but I had motivation for a period of time. I spent several hours daily dancing, did the program Brazil butt Lift, took Yoga for the first time and was feeling more like the real me. I had more tolerance to deal with a very toxic relationship i was in. I just accepted the caoss knowing things would never get better, but continued to live with him in my life.
I was able to get my veggies and shop and he must have gotten a pay off for driving me. I paid him for rides. Well I know now it was clearly a codependent association. I secretly held disgust in my heart for me and this person.

Today I can happily announce I am OUT of that situation and will never look back. Nearly three years ago I was healthy and thin and felt good physically. Unfortunately something happened to me and it changed me for the worse. i was grieving feeling so lonely  a neighbor picked up on it. He always invited me to spend time coffee or a game of chess so i was going to take him up on his offer. Sadly he had other intentions and was attached. i did not know what happened until nine months later. I coud not face this horror, but one day i realized what had happened and i broke down. It was way to late to prove this due to the way I had coped. Nine months in I am asking myself why do i feel this pain and why do I need to drink every day ? Once I came to terms with it i had stopped drinking as much.... At this point my weight had went from 105 to 167 pounds.

Today I am doing my best to make changes and abstain from any drug. i do have my slip ups, but I know i am still in the healing phase of being deceived by a man. he got me to love him and then I find out he lied about absolutely everything.  I know i am still angry. I not longer grieve the loss of him before it was the loss of who he made me believe he was.

Today I am single like it that way and wont even consider having a man in my life until i am whole. i  need to learn to love myself again and find who i am again. i lost who i was and now i am starting over, but want to it with the help of  http://drleaf.com/ Dr. Caroline Leaf's neuro science. Got to deal with the root issues that caused me to stay with a man who didn't love me.



These are pics of the house i grew up in. It was nice to see my old home again.

Things have changed ~

 I wanted to keep up with what I have been doing. As you know I have battled with an illness, dysautonomia and still I have had a long journey of getting to the other side. I did have CFS and fibromyalgia and constant migraines and no longer suffer due to the adaptogen blend I take. There is a cure for fibro and dysautonomia. Legally I cannot claim what it is just yet. i do believe when clinical studies are done then it will be proven. Alternative medicine is new so the medical field has no idea and no cure. They encourage us to support the pharmaceutical companies which is only a band-aid at best. Putting a chemical into your body will only exasperate your health and cause other complications. I would much rather support the farmers and discover healing rather then the pharmaceutical industry. Writing is not my strength  I used to have my ex edit for me I am that bad with grammar.

Well anyway I am happy to share that I have learned a lot in the last three years.... I know I need to share my story because I believe it will help others..

Currently I am beginning a new program which I love. I dislike exercise and this program I actually say I look forward to doing the workouts.  PiYO is not high impact on your joints.  It focuses on alignment, flexibility and core strength. So when I am doing this I sweat like crazy and get super results in toning.

 I will be posting before and after pics. I got a new camera so once i figure out how to use it I will being making videos and pictures..

Starting over !

 It's been a couple of years since these pictures were taken and two years ago  I know I was at a very good place in many ways. My condition was in remission for the most part Back then i was juicing daily mostly greens and also I was getting regular colonics. it cleared up my skin and i e3nded up loosing a lot of weight by that winter. I begun the Brazil Butt Lift and took shakeology. It totally transformed my figure. I always struggled with weight on my hips and this program took the weigh on the outside and inside of my legs. A lot of things were in motion for change in the right direction.

 As you can see in my pictures even though i felt flawless inside I was unhappy. Being involved with someone or wishing to have someone take part in life with me never seemed to happen. It brought me down. I felt very lonely wishing I had someone special to share my life with...

  At this time I was beginning Traditional Yoga  practice and I was amazed how that changed my body. I intuitively know the mediation and the practice is something I need to follow.  I
 did for a year and volunteered as a cast member for season five of the show that is aired on channel ten. I was even interviewed and still to this date a year ago i have not seen myself on TV.

 I am blessed with friends that I know where I get my regular massages and treatments.  Jessica Marsh is one of the BEST massage therapists I know and would highly recommenced her.
there is a picture of her office it is so bright and beautiful :) ~`

Currently i will be starting over with my health and would like to journal all the steps back to the best health I can have.  I plan to share one step at a time and plan on videos... If I end up helping at least one person it is worth it to do this ! ~`